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STOP EXERCISING, START TRAINING

Being looked at on a daily basis, makes me want to look as myself. When I see a current picture of myself – either a blog photo or a family snap shot – I still always get the same feeling I used to have when our school pictures were taken in primary school. That awkward moment of other people looking at you and how you think you look best in pictures. How you show the smile you practiced in front of a mirror a dozen times already, but somehow doesn’t come across the same way when you have to replicate it on front of a bunch of those staring eyes. I’ve never liked having my pictures taken. And yes, I know that sounds incredibly weird coming out of a blogger’s mouth, but it might have something to do with the fact that I know that as soon as a picture is out there, it’s being judged by every single person that will lay his/her eyes on it. Including my worst and most harsh critic: me.

I have to admit that even the harshest critic in the world (yup, me again!) apparently can soften up a little bit. When I look at my old pictures now, I’m not as mean about my own appearance anymore. I can even focus on the things I (kind of..) like about myself and what I looked like. It saddens me a little bit that this isn’t always happening with my current pictures. Will I have to wait for years to be able to see my current pictures as beautiful too? I’m more and more starting to believe I won’t.

I think it all boils down to the fact that lately I’ve been redefining what beauty actually means to me, simply because I don’t want to waste more time of my life bitching on how I look. Or worse: focusing on how I don’t look. I’ve never even met a person whom I thought bad things about like I used to think bad things about myself. I started to realise that it’s something I did on a daily basis without even realising it at that point. So I made myself realise it. And made myself realise it again. I’m not saying I’m am where I want to be right now, but somehow I’m in a much better place. The secret? Training. Not for the sake of losing weight. Not for the sake of looking like a pro athlete. Not because I hate my body.. but because I love it more than I used to. It can be scary to find out I’ve been wrong about something, but I can’t be afraid to change my mind, to accept that sometimes things are different than I thought. And that they’ll never be the same, for better or for worse. I had to be willing to give up what I used to believe to find myself exactly where I belong.

As you all know by now, I started training about a year ago. I’ve always been the sporty type, but I wanted to rekindle that fire for sports in a different way. As Nike’s training campaign suggests: Stop Exercising, Start Training. I wanted to see what my body was capable of if I were to set my mind to it. And boy, did I learn a lot about myself: I am a strong woman and pretty damn proud of it.

I came to understand that the look of my body doesn’t necessarily have to be an outcome of my physical efforts, neither should it be an antithesis of the skinny body ideal we’ve grown to become so familiar with. My body is just mine. It’s who I am, but it doesn’t only define who I am. It’s capable of so much more than I ever would have dreamed of. It was probably there all along, but I had to say goodbye to the old me in order to reconnect with what had become the new me. And who I want to be. Getting ready for another week of trainings as we speak. I’m ready.

Top, tights, sports bra, gloves – Nike Women’s Training / Shoes – Nike Free TR7

 

 

This blog post was written in collaboration with Nike Training, but needless to say: all opinions and experiences are my own. Oh and that good looking trainer? That’s Claudio. As soon as I got the chance to duo-shoot this collab for Nike I knew I wanted to shoot this piece of content with one of the few people that were able to convince me I could actually do things like this. That I’m always stronger and capable of more than I expected. So thank, Clau! You rock!

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3 Responses to STOP EXERCISING, START TRAINING

  1. Marlin June 12, 2017 at 8:11 pm #

    Prachtige foto’s!! Je bent gewoon een topper en dont let your inner critic tell you different!!!

  2. Roos June 12, 2017 at 8:29 pm #

    Heel herkenbaar wat je schrijft! Super fijn dat je zo goed in je vel zit :) X

  3. Lennart June 12, 2017 at 9:59 pm #

    Gosh I’m so proud of you babe! <3 you look astonishing! Glad you met Claudio to help you start training!

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